My oh my what a difference a year makes. 

This has been one heck of a year. I wanted 2012 to be a year of change, and boy did I get what I had hoped for. I lost weight, regained control on my life, and went through a divorce and thought my world as I knew it was over. It's a good thing, though. That world did end, and it needed to long before it actually did. As soon as I moved back to Texas, I was introduced to my soulmate, Jason. The irony is that I actually already knew him, from when I was 12. We both had crushes on each other at a young age. After spending over half of the year getting to know him better, and letting our families mingle... we decided to marry. There was really no reason to wait, or keep destiny from happening and now we are more than happy.
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It's odd because I never really felt love before. I mean. I know I was married, but being with Jason is much different. I know without a doubt that he loves and cherishes me. He tells me with his words and his actions. I guess that's the big difference. He's so incredibly happy and grateful that we crossed paths, and he's proud to call me his wife.

Here's to a new year, and a new life with my soulmate.

Good evening! My life is finally starting to settle and I feel so many blessings. I realized that I cannot control everything, even in my own life. Luckily, God has His own steps for me, and now that I have stepped aside and relinquished control with my silly little plans, I am seeing all of His blessings as He planned for me from the beginning. I must say, IT FEELS AWESOME!

As for my weight.. eh... it has been a roller coaster. I am on hormones for the PCOS and irregularity thing so that has caused some shifts in my moods. I get on a roll and start working out a lot, but then it dwindles. I am staying active and still tracking my calories. I haven't exactly gone over my calories (okay once in the last six months or so), but it's not exactly eating clean calories either. I did go buy a lot of fresh fruit yesterday and I am looking forward to cleansing my diet a little. This last week, I had managed to lose 1/2 a pound, but then when I weighed after three very stressful days, I'd gained 3 pounds. Aye yi yi. It'll happen... I'm still motivated and HAPPY. :)

Good afternoon! It's been a little while since I've been on here. My routine has still suffered. I get in the groove and start working out, but then something happens and I lose my mojo. I've still been really happy and still not eating a whole lot like I used to, but I haven't been constantly eating at home and making sure to make the right choices. I am still walking a lot and logging what I eat, but I need to get back to dancing and really working out. I've been considering joining a gym around here, but I'm still not sure. I just want to make sure it's something that I will continually use and not be just a waste of money like all of the other times before. What I hate is that my Wii is in one place and my Kinect is in another. I need a steady place to live, and my life has been turned upside down over the past few months, but I still haven't gotten to a stable place... or at least, what I feel is stable. I did like that part of my life in Virginia. I was working out steadily and making the right choices. I had even gotten to a point where I was cooking fairly steadily. Ah... I'll get there. My pants are still fitting loosely so that is what matters, huh? I updated some pictures where I did the side-by-side thing. The first one was taken at Xmas and the other one on my bday, May 11. I am down 56 lbs at the moment.

Hey all of you beautiful people out there! I'm in a super mood today. The sun is shining so brightly in my life and I just cannot stop smiling. It's UHmazing! I just love saying that and meaning it.

For my weight loss... it's been hard adjusting in a new place, especially since I seem to bounce around from different places w/ my family. Once I find a real job, I'll save up and get my own place and things will settle down and get more routine again. I have been dancing on the Kinect, but it's out of my brother's. It's fun, though. The really funny thing was that I was doing my hour stretch and he wanted to do it with me. He'd dance a song or two, huff and puff, and have to take a break. He seemed to be amazed that I could keep going, although he just kept me in stitches the whole time. I think I burned more calories laughing than dancing.. NAH. :) It did add to my burn, though.

Anyway, so I had gained between 5 and 7 lbs two weeks ago, and then this last week I got it back down and now I'm back on schedule. As of this week, I've lost 50.6 lbs. I'm going to start walking a lot more, like I used to and my goals are to get back into a hardcore routine of working out, and reaching at least 500 cal a day. This week has been great because I've been doing a challenge on Lose It! with a partner, and it's really driving me to hit more calories.

Well, that's all for now. I'll try to check back in when I can. I've been doing a lot of writing and working online lately, but I'm sooo back!!! :)

Here are a few pics I've taken in the last couple of weeks. And yes. I so did the in the car pic. I think I did it mainly as a joke because a certain someone thought it was always ridiculous, but I was in a great mood and clicked the pic anyway. Regardless, I am happy and I see a big difference between these pictures and the ones from when I first started.

Hi there. I haven't written in awhile and wanted to check in. I've had some great news. I met my 50 lb loss last Friday. I was so excited when I found this out. I actually thought that I had gained weight for the week because other than walking, I hadn't done any extreme working out. I am getting back to it, but it's been so hard with changing up my entire life. I'm living on someone else' schedule and it is somewhat driving me nuts. I need my own space and soon.

Friday night, I weighed in at 241.4, which puts me at a 50.6 lb loss for the year. This is a fantastic thing, and I am wearing size 18 shorts that are loose on me. This is a huge thing, considering I was buying size 26 from October to December of last year. I worked out pretty heavily on Sunday, and now I am very sore so I'm trying to stretch a lot more and get the knots out of my legs. I am considering entering a 5K at the end of the month, and there is a mud run next weekend that sounds pretty amazing.

Other than that, I am really enjoying my new life. I'm slowly but steadily getting things the way they need to be. I have an uphill battle I am sure, but I know I will get my life back and it will be happy. I've already experienced bliss since moving, and it's only getting better. I have had a few angry thoughts cross my mind today, but I know it is all a part of a process that will come with the pending divorce. In all honesty, I haven't thought about it much. My mind has been elsewhere, and I like it because I just don't want to think about anything that is going to get me down. I am ridding my life of negativity, and so far it has been great. Even my family is much more positive and less dramatic with the new changes in my life.

Hello World.

The sun sure is shining down on me, and it's not just because I'm now living in Texas. But, that may have a lot to do with it. I feel at peace with myself and things are just going really well. I weighed in and lost a little over this last week, but it has taken some getting used to. I've had to adjust my eating patterns since I'm now staying with my grandparents until I get back on my feet. I haven't been able to work out as much, but I hope that is about to change as I get more settled.

I weighed in today at 247.6. I guess that's not too shabby for right at three months. Just call me 4's as I've lost 44.4 lbs. I have been keeping up with logging and drinking lots of water. That is great for me, but I know that this last weekend didn't help. I went out with my dad, and although I did not drink drink, I did have some soda. I tried to keep it to mainly diet, but even that doesn't help in the weight loss side of things. Oh well... it was fun and I can always walk it off later, right?

Here's to me... my smile is bigger than Texas and the stars are shining brightly every night that I walk. I just love it!!!